Growing around close friends and family

Hello everyone,
Today, an interesting topic has been on my mind to sit with and write about to share my thoughts and experiences with others. I am very involved in a spiritual community that feeds me in many ways and after watching a wonderful film last night, oldie but goodie, Dead Poets Society with Robin Williams, I began asking myself, “how do we grow into the person we vision ourself to be and not worry or be hindered by those friends and family members around us?

Four years ago I began asking myself some of the most important questions in life you can ask yourself, “Who Am I?” “What’s my purpose?” and many others. These questions are only the most important if you continue asking them to yourself your entire life. After continously asking myself these questions, things started happening in my life that were truly un-heard of, un-explainable, and just down right CRAZY! Though, in my heart they didn’t feel crazy, in fact, they felt like the exact perfect thing for me to do to take me in the direction to find more meaning and clarity in life.

So as these instances came into my life I began to change and start to look at life differently. Now, I still felt like the same “me” as I have always been, but my interests, perspective, and values started to change. People around me were perfectly fine with the “old me”. In fact, that’s who they loved. The only problem was, I didn’t fully love the old me> As I continued to grow, those friends and family members began wondering where I had gone. My love for them was the same, though because I was growing into the person I knew myself to be, we didn’t have the same interests anymore. Many of these people tried with all they could to stop me from making certain decisions out of what they felt was love, though I knew that what I was doing and where I was going was leading me to more passion, love, and deep authenticity in my life.

After watching Dead Poets Society last night, which they refer to Carpe Diem, “seize the day”, the boys challenge the traditional way of growing and choose to go at life in there own way, rather than the way they were told to go. Follow your heart, listen to the voice that knows all.

I went to my spiritual home this morning and I realized that even in a place where positive change is excepted, there is still a sort of “weirdness” if someone steps out of the role everyone knows them as. For example, if everyone knows you as the person always making jokes, laughing, and being silly, but a huge part of your heart is here to express deep passion and have conversations that cut to very vulnerable areas in people’s life, then many people would find it much easier to embrace you as the person always making jokes. Though, how would you still keep that beautiful sense of humor and step into a role that supports your deep expression?
Today I write to you at a place in my life where I am challenging myself daily to step out of my comfort zone, to seize the day, to take ever opportunity and make it meaningful.

Are you ready to step into who you know yourself to be?

What thoughts come to your mind that keep you from making important decisions for yourself?

The answer is within all laws of life. If you want to grow past your fears and love yourself more, help someone else by supporting them to overcome their fears. If you want to speak in front of others, encourage and support someone else who is doing or wants to do this very same thing. Learn to be more contributive to others and your walls of fear will dissappear into the night….